CRUSH!

Assalammualaikum. I just continue for my previous entry. Besides, I also hope I can meet my crush back..well…what will be his reaction towards me then. I was wondering. Never mind. He just a guy I’ve been crushing for about three years without confessing or telling anyone. I can’t simply trust anyone though. Honestly, I was thinking that I will not having crush anymore towards him as soon as I get into matric but I was wrong…my heart still beat the same way as the three years back then in my secondary school. Damn! It happens when I met him during marching camp organized by matriculation all over the country. I pretend for not being recognized by him but I failed…I still cannot face him and act normally even actually he has been dated with someone. Enough for crush. I don’t really like this topic but at least I have confessed it. I don’t really think there is one who can really understand my feeling towards this guy. I try to open to my close one but they never truly understand so I keep it to myself. Well, I never mean to beg someone to feel me.  I can say that I just a typical person who having crush on a bad boy of the school. HAHA. When exactly I can change? I had no idea. Adios!

ME CHANGING

Assalammualaikum, last entry I updated about ME never get excited..eventho I never excited likewise having no friend and never socialize doesn’t really mean I have no friend at all okay..I do have lot of them. I mean pretty a lot especially during my matriculation level.. I have changed a lot from my secondary school. I can say that I like much myself during matric compared to my previous version. But sometimes I do miss my old me which pretty much silent and more to listening to others and more considerate. My thought sometimes bother my mind..I hate myself for being slightly more open, energetic and sometimes might get overly,being sarcastic, talkative one..and so on. But that exactly makes me having many  friend and famous kind of…full of myself! HAHA… I also hope that my frienemy can see my changes..she is my best friend once but we have lost contact since something happened between us and I think its my fault…which also due to our distance...we are really far away between each other...I hope she will never forget me. She always on my mind. I have many feeling mixing toward her. Grudge. Anger. Miss. All blends become one. I was angry because she always downgrades me and questioning my weaknesses… I still remember her way questioning me along with her laugh that’s really torture me...in her  thought like I never hurt…that is one of the reason I hope she will see my changes and shut her mouth… I also missed her since we shared the same history during our childhood age…a lot of sweet memories we have been through…HUHU. It’s okay, I accept the fate we will never meet eye to eye again or else chatting to each other again. That’s all for now. Adios!

SOULLESS

Assalammualaikum, so this is my second entry in this blog. I just wanna share you guys since I actually had accomplished my wish which was own a laptop..alhamdulillah I’ve got one from my father. I never say thanks to him for this..my bad! I was bad and I am…this thing bother my mind so much lately…I should thanks him as soon as he gave me the laptop..I should have so it would not be so much awkward to thanks him at any other time (well cuz I am not really close to him). Eventho he is not really dying for the words for me to utter but…rationally It should be. I am not even excited for it actually when he gave me the laptop..I am disappointed of myself for that..well I always be like that all the time in every situation that a normal person should react surprisingly...it takes me ages to excite me upon something. I can say that I am someone that cannot easily excited over something and that’s what makes me thought that I am not an interesting person for people to get along with..yah I have no sense of surprise kind of HAHA..and that is why I don’t have anyone in mind and heart now which normally people with the same ages as mine should have one...it’s okay then I am really sure that the Almighty have his own plan that is a way much better than we ever plan on (I am not that desperate). My best friend has said that I am not a sweet person..i cant easily open up to anyone..I am a peculiar girl..HUHU.. anyway I always keep his(my father) name in my dua..always. I hope my parent live long and healthy so that I can pay off all of their hardship for rising me…forgive me. I don’t mean to be such a bad daughter..HUHU (fake crying) Adios!

About me

Assalammualaikum, so this is a very first entry I had done for a long time let alone this blog..huh..so introducing you i am Zulaikha or else being called as zue..yeah my nickname since keeping it short and simple to call yet my real name was actually real simple but never mind..I like that name..I just like how people utter it with their own way..I get used to that name started from when my tuition teacher call me using that name since she is a very simple person though and also started with my very close schoolmates from my secondary school..she loves to call me zue since there are several person that use the same name as mine...its okay, I still thought the name given by my parents are unique and special as I am..HAHA...yeah me sometimes are so full of my own self..Since then until now I get to used this nickname slowly introducing myself to others..well it was actually hard to use different name u know but I dare myself to officially use it especially during my matriculation.. 

   See, I only introducing my name and it has been for years to explain it!! What?! I was born in Sandakan, Sabah back then in 2000..I growing up in Batu Pahat, Johor for 9 years..well I spent a lot of my childhood age there..and now I continue with my life happily in Kulim, Kedah..Alhamdulillah..I am lucky to have such a beautiful background of my life HIHI..I know there are lot and much more people who experience something much bigger than mine. I will share my piece of life with you guys in another entry on my free time..I'll keep updating..So welcome to my blog, I hope you guys enjoy this blog and feel warm to know myself..I really really hope I also can get to know each of who read this...I just want to share my story of life and I just love writing..I do love on language..


Adios!