ME CHANGING

Assalammualaikum, last entry I updated about ME never get excited..eventho I never excited likewise having no friend and never socialize doesn’t really mean I have no friend at all okay..I do have lot of them. I mean pretty a lot especially during my matriculation level.. I have changed a lot from my secondary school. I can say that I like much myself during matric compared to my previous version. But sometimes I do miss my old me which pretty much silent and more to listening to others and more considerate. My thought sometimes bother my mind..I hate myself for being slightly more open, energetic and sometimes might get overly,being sarcastic, talkative one..and so on. But that exactly makes me having many  friend and famous kind of…full of myself! HAHA… I also hope that my frienemy can see my changes..she is my best friend once but we have lost contact since something happened between us and I think its my fault…which also due to our distance...we are really far away between each other...I hope she will never forget me. She always on my mind. I have many feeling mixing toward her. Grudge. Anger. Miss. All blends become one. I was angry because she always downgrades me and questioning my weaknesses… I still remember her way questioning me along with her laugh that’s really torture me...in her  thought like I never hurt…that is one of the reason I hope she will see my changes and shut her mouth… I also missed her since we shared the same history during our childhood age…a lot of sweet memories we have been through…HUHU. It’s okay, I accept the fate we will never meet eye to eye again or else chatting to each other again. That’s all for now. Adios!