SOULLESS

Assalammualaikum, so this is my second entry in this blog. I just wanna share you guys since I actually had accomplished my wish which was own a laptop..alhamdulillah I’ve got one from my father. I never say thanks to him for this..my bad! I was bad and I am…this thing bother my mind so much lately…I should thanks him as soon as he gave me the laptop..I should have so it would not be so much awkward to thanks him at any other time (well cuz I am not really close to him). Eventho he is not really dying for the words for me to utter but…rationally It should be. I am not even excited for it actually when he gave me the laptop..I am disappointed of myself for that..well I always be like that all the time in every situation that a normal person should react surprisingly...it takes me ages to excite me upon something. I can say that I am someone that cannot easily excited over something and that’s what makes me thought that I am not an interesting person for people to get along with..yah I have no sense of surprise kind of HAHA..and that is why I don’t have anyone in mind and heart now which normally people with the same ages as mine should have one...it’s okay then I am really sure that the Almighty have his own plan that is a way much better than we ever plan on (I am not that desperate). My best friend has said that I am not a sweet person..i cant easily open up to anyone..I am a peculiar girl..HUHU.. anyway I always keep his(my father) name in my dua..always. I hope my parent live long and healthy so that I can pay off all of their hardship for rising me…forgive me. I don’t mean to be such a bad daughter..HUHU (fake crying) Adios!